Delving Deeper

Good afternoon good people. What a wonderful day it is. Today I woke up late and got to class a whole hour late. Thank God my lecturer is understanding 🙂 So I sit down, take out my book and pen and begin to write. Before I can even get the full sentence “… full stop, end of class!” Class is over? But I just got here. So here I am with a whole 2hrs of free time and I’m dedicating it to you, my readers.

Today’s topic is deep. When I googled it (I like to be thorough in my research) I found a whole website on it (check it out by the way, it’s awesome.) 

I was talking to a friend yesterday and we were talking about swimming. As I relayed my “first swimming experience” story, I found that it served as a very important life lesson. Let me indulge you.

The first time I ever got into a swimming pool was in 1996. I was a sweet little class 2 pupil and I was excited and scared at the same time. With time I got used to the water and started to learn new things (about myself). For 1, I could open my eyes under water. I also dicovered that I could float on water. As much as I was learning, I was still scared and so I sort of fell behind on lessons. The others had started learning freestyle and I still hadn’t mastered the dog paddle. I was slowly losing hope and I never thought I’d really learn to swim. The day of reckoning came sooner than I’d expected. We were expected to swim across the shallow end in freestyle. I made sure I was the last in line, hoping someone else would mess up before I did and force the instructor to repeat the whole lesson. I watched all the others go, none making a mistake. I was trembling. I honestly thought I couldn’t do it and I knew the instructor wouldn’t be pleased. Everyone was now on the other side, it was my turn to swim across and I was so scared I thought I would throw up. I got into the water, stretched myself out, started kicking, moved my arms and swam across the pool!

I learnt a new thing about myself that day, I’m not a quiter. I could have chickened out and said I couldn’t do it but I didn’t. As much as I thought I was ill equiped, deep down I knew I could accomplish what I set my mind to. (of course I didn’t think like that at seven years old, but now I see it.) I was so excited about learning to swim so quickly, I believed I was better than everybody else. With time I actually got better than most people.

So here I am, 22yrs old and learning lessons from my 7yr old self (who woulda thank it). I’m at the point in my life where am gradually discovering my purpose in life. The BIG question. Who am I, and why do I exist? Just saw a facebook post from my brother that read “The two most important days of yo life….The day u were born, n the day u discover why!” We all want to know why we exist, what our purpose is. We fill in different kinds of questionnaires on the internet. “what your eys say about you” “who will u marry” (this one gives you vague answers like , his name starts with a ‘K’). We attend seminars and workshops, buy all sorts of motivational books. All in the hope of finding out who we are.

The truth is, we can only find out who we are by looking into ourselves. When you delv deeper into your life, you soon discover who you are and what your prupose is. See I don’t think who you are can be summed up in one word. And your purpose today may not be your purpose tomorrow. (That’s why I also don’t think there’s only one day when you discover why you were born) You won’t know now what you’re supposed to be doing in ten years. Like me at seven years of age, you may think you could never be able to do one thing or another. But you’ll never know until you try. I spent most of my high school life thinking I wanted to be an architect (maybe I still can) I never pictured myself a writer. I was never good when it came to writing compositions, everyone elses was always better than mine. And yet here I am typing away with too much information flowing through my head.

My point is, don’t sit around trying to figure out what to do with yourself, just throw yourself into the pool and hope you come out on the other side safely. You will discover new things about yourself. Also take time to look at your past and see the things you’ve been through, what you have been able to achieve. It will give you motivation to keep going.

There is, however a way to go about it. First of all you need to pray about it. If there’s anyone who knows you even better than you know yourself, it’s God. He did create you, so he must know why. Secondly, consult his word. (Psalms 1:2). In colossians 3:23-24 the bible says, ” 23Whatever may be your task, work at it heartily (from the soul), as [something done] for the Lord and not for men,  24Knowing [with all certainty] that it is from the Lord [and not from men] that you will receive the inheritance which is your [real] reward. [The One Whom] you are actually serving [is] the Lord Christ (the Messiah). (Amplified version) By following this scripture, we can be sure that what we are doing is what we are supposed to be doing.

Delv deeper into yourself and with the help of the Holy Spirit you will be able to discover what you’re supposed to be doing right now. Then do it with all your heart, as though you were working for God and not for men.

Until next time!


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